Down in the dumps

I'm feeling down today as you can see from the post title. And its 10.16pm. Yup I'm kinda shocked too that I'm posting quite early cause I mostly reflect around 2 am. I guess it must be pms. So I just got my results for A's back and the results are horrible. No surprise there really. However, it really narrowed down my choices and that's awesome cause I think I know what I wanna do in the future now. I know that I really like kid from a certain observation I made of myself. Yes I observe myself cause I dont know me that well. I'm really hoping to look back and read these post to wonder why I was so worried in the first place. I know I need a plan b if this doesnt work out. But man I never thought of making it into a career. Cause I fear making drawing a bothersome and tiring thing. Its what makes me feel relaxed and I have the power of expresing myself despite the picture being totally irrelevent to how I'm feeling. However the detail that i put into my drawing reflects my mood. I love video games too so I guess it suits me. But I'm not sure if Singapore has a space for me. As in the field of work I'm interested in. Dayum there's so much to think about being 20. Do you experience this extential crisis too? Ja' feel? I hope I'm not the only one cause I'm the type to feel calm when I see that people do go through these moments and lived to tell the tale. How am I gonna get 12-20 artworks? GYAHHHHH.....must...persevere....i need advice real bad :C