Thanks and my life

Hey there people who read my blog whose probably cringing at the fact that my language is so bad. I'm so sorry you have to put up with this crap. Well whether you're just clicking through random blogs or anything, I just wanna say thank you for taking your time to read this sentence. I'm pretty sure I'm not worth the 2 min that you spend depending on your reading speed. Hey I don't judge. Maybe I do it subconsciously but I don't mean no harm. I had a great day yesterday which is just a few hours ago in the asia pacific region however it didn't start off quite as well. For starters, mom got mad but mostly frustrated due to the cats peeing literally everywhere. Have no idea what they were trying to pull off but if it was to piss my mom off (pun not intended or maybe I did) they freaking succeeded. However, as I have promised my friends, I went to my school's open house and my goodness was the choreography for modern dance awesome. So proud of the my little juniors. It wasn't perfectly executed but it was a decent performance that attracted the crowd. It was fun and playful and that definitely represented us as dancers. Kinda sad that I can't be involved with dancing anymore. Welp, it was fun while it last and I guess I have to find some other fun things that are permissible to do. And I am glad to finally see my cute and cuddly friends. They are very loveable people. And Seri was there too! Happy to see that she's fine. However, sometimes it strucks me so hard how lucky I am to be living this life. And I'm saying this cause my friend is feeling down in the dumps due to family circumstances. I pray to the greater being to grant her mother good health and a long life. Please let this be a blessing in disguise cause she's lived through some tough situations and I'm scared that if anything more were to happen she might break. So that was the summary. I may have left a huge chunk of it but hey, let me keep some stories to myself. Thanks again and have a great day! C:

All these feels and no face to vomit my thoughts to

To fall in love and have it reciprocated seems like such a wonderful thing. My goodness. Maybe it's just the time or maybe it's the manga I just read or even this hindi tune in listening to. How does these chemicals in our brains actually function or be secreted? Like for example just one day and your brain decides,"You know what buddy? I'm gonna make you fall in love with this person so bad that communication just doesn't work for you but you just have to try and signal to this person how you feel about him/her." Like why? WHY YOU DO THIS BRAIN? And it's so weird how they say the heart does the thinking in relationship when it actually doesn't. The heart's function is just to pump blood all over into your system and has no part in making you blush when you look that person in the eyes or get real careful with the words you use in order for that person to not be creeped out by you or avoid you because that just regresses the filling of the relationship vial of some sort. You know like the sims with those kinda stuff where you have to talk and joke to make it rise or fall depending on how often you interact. Okay now let's just talk a sec about having another person possesing the same type of feeling towards you. Now that is something close to a miracle I must say cause I have yet to feel it. I mean telling is a different thing but feeling, it's a security thing? I mean assurance. And you know how some people just stay single all their life? Well I have a theory for that that some might think is kinda something to squint your eyes upon and it is that these people, sadly ,are unable to find their soulmates cause they probably are dead. And that means that it's just a sad thing that they did not get to cross paths while both of them were still alive. And so I believe in the afterlife and not just due to my religion. Anyway, in the afterlife, they will figure out a way find each other and 'live' happily ever after. And isn't that just great? A greater being made another half of you in this world and this person will love you for the rest of his or her life and will not leave you and will wipe the tears off your face or argue with you about even the nitty gritty stuff however, it is all solely due to the choice that they made and that is to be with you. It's not like they were stuck with you like how families are and how they just have to live and deal with it. Totally no blood ties at all and this person can leave any freaking time they want but they CHOOSE to stay and that is amazing. Like our parents. They chose to be together. Well, unless it was an arranged marriage and they can't get divorce or something. And sometimes the greater being bless both of you with children that have some traits,good or bad, from the both of you. Just wow dude. Anticipating a love life like those in the hindi movies or the books may be too much but I hope to find the right man with the right values that loves me with all his heart even when we are all old and wrinkled and I hope that I can love him like that too.

It's kinda sad how the people who need help the most are those who keep encouraging others. And they are ironically the stubborn ones when it comes to their own problems. I am currently reading an amazing manga called Tokyo Ghoul and Tokyo Ghoul:re too. Kaneki Ken is this man who takes it upon himself any harm cause to the people he love. He thinks it due to his incompetence that these people are hurt and I really think that is sad. And it's kinda complicated how some may regard his kindness as some sort of twisted self-interest. However, i think it is a noble act to do whatever you can instead of depending on others and risk them getting injurt. Some say that it is due to his inability to come to terms with loneliness that was triggered by the death of his parents and when he suddenly found out that he was a different kind than he used to be.And due to that selfishness, to not want to be alone, he strive to protect everyone. I don't think it's wrong to have such mindset though. Anyways some problem cropped up in the household again and that is the reason for my rambling. Pardon me for I tend to write irrelevant things when problem arises. Kinda like me trying to escape for a bit ya feel me? Welp back to reality and this awesomesauce manga. Damn am I happy that Ezaidah recommended this to me.