AWESOME DAY EVER

So today was an awesome day cause SENPAI NOTICED ME HAHAHAH no but the thing is that Mr Sark noticed me on twitch chatroom hooomaigosh i swear. He is awesome and you should check out his vid man. His edits are amazing and super funny. He just said "to hoppityhobbit yes nick(nfen) has a youtube channel and you should check it out" it was during a live stream and he was playing nazi zombie 3 with allshamnowow, nfen and aplfisher who won in cs:go and was late for the party. Then sham said something about his youtube channel and nfen was saying " yeah you should check my youtube channel ...." and he was just jesting sbout sham's gamer tag. Woahhhhhh just thinking that he noticed me is like amazing. HE KNOWS I EXIST hahahaha okay I'm being real creepy right now. But this is something worth remembering cause i'm just a lowly fan and he answered my qn. Maybe its also thanks to the guy to replied to me on the chat too. Thanks man! Appreciate it loads! C: Future Mairah i hope more awesome things to come happened to you my friend. Peace

Down in the dumps

I'm feeling down today as you can see from the post title. And its 10.16pm. Yup I'm kinda shocked too that I'm posting quite early cause I mostly reflect around 2 am. I guess it must be pms. So I just got my results for A's back and the results are horrible. No surprise there really. However, it really narrowed down my choices and that's awesome cause I think I know what I wanna do in the future now. I know that I really like kid from a certain observation I made of myself. Yes I observe myself cause I dont know me that well. I'm really hoping to look back and read these post to wonder why I was so worried in the first place. I know I need a plan b if this doesnt work out. But man I never thought of making it into a career. Cause I fear making drawing a bothersome and tiring thing. Its what makes me feel relaxed and I have the power of expresing myself despite the picture being totally irrelevent to how I'm feeling. However the detail that i put into my drawing reflects my mood. I love video games too so I guess it suits me. But I'm not sure if Singapore has a space for me. As in the field of work I'm interested in. Dayum there's so much to think about being 20. Do you experience this extential crisis too? Ja' feel? I hope I'm not the only one cause I'm the type to feel calm when I see that people do go through these moments and lived to tell the tale. How am I gonna get 12-20 artworks? GYAHHHHH.....must...persevere....i need advice real bad :C