Oh guess who's back

My goodness its been 10 years you've got to be kidding me. SO much has changed and i mean it. Covid happened man omg wow i'm feeling so much nostalgia from reading my old post. Last time i wrote here, i was 20. Am i gonna update this blog every 10 years? And i was in my first year of radiography. Let's catch you up okay Mai. I know I'm the only one who's gonna read this but i'm glad i did. I seem to forget the tough times I went through. Or maybe the post were hidden? Or maybe cause i know my friends read this so i didnt really wanna expose myself. Makes me feel vulnerable. Not that they would tease me; theyre sweet people. OH GUESS WHAT your sec school friends are all married. WITH KIDSSS wah we went through so much didnt we? So you went through the 2nd and 3rd year just fine but we know we couldve done better. But i've always dislike marathons. But youre lucky that SIT offered that course for RGs and you were accepted too what were the changes Allah is the best of all planners really. I dont think youd have the money to take up private. It was all paid for by mendaki all 15k of it. You went to ireland too and you even graduated there. It was done in ancient latin which i didnt think i wouldve experience that. And remember woodlands? Yeah you didnt have a guarantor that earned a base of $3k so that went down the drain. But i think things happen for a reason. Guess where you went instead? Nah not changi even though you really liked that place as a student. Its KTPH. Yeah. I mean maybe i shouldve gone to sgh but you know...Your ego. They rejected you and you had too much pride to go back there. Anyways, you stayed there for a total of 5 years now. In your 2nd or 3rd year in NYP, Aida got you into BTS HAHAHA until now(2025). You went to greet them at the airport late at night when you had an ultrasound exam the morning after. You saw hobi and his amazing side profile. Man 10 year is really too much to fit in 1 blog post. You finally travelled far. I think Hainan was the first far ish trip you went without your parents. And that was with Aida. Wah i swear i hope you really treasure her. She allowed you to have alot of new fresh experiences now that im reflecting back. You got to see people grow old. Her mom passed away around 2020 end of the year. I'm indebt to her. I'm sure she reminded her to bring extra food for me whenever i met her. Omg since this is after 2015...you got your driver's license too in 2017. I think it was JK's birthday. Not intentional; you didnt know JK then. You went to korea too! Yoooo it was after covid. You finally had the money to travel. Okay thats all i wanna share for today. Theres a lot more to talk about. we do this slowly okay. I need to submit AHPC huhu. Talk to you soon

Devdas

My goodness I'm so in love with this movie. I've seen it being recommended on google but i never really did watch it. It was a burst of emotions that seems so foreign to me yet so familiar. The heartache it gave me, the songs, everything is just so wonderful so depressing. Its a beautiful kind of sadness. It's so difficult to be put into words. Btw, Deena was the one who introduced me to it unintentionally. She was just asking if it was supposed to be that depressing and I was curious so I watched the darn film. The songs, omg the songs it was familiar, very familiar in fact cause i've heard it multiple times on vasantham i think. And this song, Silsila Yeh Chahat Ka, its so gorgeous. Aishwarya Rai was beautiful in the movie and the actors and actresses were on point. Mahduri was the excellent courtesan with the wonderful moves and Shah Rukh Khan was Devdas obviously with his amazing actor skills and he was so good at potraying the confused Devdas, unsure of what to do with this love he found himself in that was forbidden in a sense of caste and family name. Oh dear how am I gonna let this excitement bubble down. I feel like Ive drown in the beauty of this movie that uses the tongue of peotry. I may not truely understand the deep meaning behind each of the scene but i do see myself rewatching this when ive matured a bit more to see what ive missed out being in my 20s or even last year as a teen. For now, I shall just let myself be dose in the goodness of Silsila Yeh Chahat Ka.

My heart felt

Natasha Bedingfield is making me feel so much weird emotions. HAHAHA now I'm currently having clinicals and its great however kinda worried about my results. Woodlands have accepted me based on my interview so now its pending cause of my sem 1 results. Oh dear.

SCREWED

Whatsup future Mairah. So i solved the very tedious process of logging out of my google account. So troublesome. Its 3 in the morning and I'm not sleeping cause some genius decided it would be fun to put two test on the same day. So yeah. And why am I not studying instead? Cause stuff is bugging me. And the actual answer to all your problems is to put your trust in Allah and put in effort. AND obviously having tons of patience is key too. May Allah resolve this problem. Ameen Edit: Late night rant is obviously filled with loads of mistakes. I just wanna say sorry. Cause I complain to you a lot. And I rarely talk about the good things in life. In syaa Allah I'll talk about good stuff in the next post. I love you.

Bad week

Hey there. Just realise I'm bad at socializing. Maybe that's why I'm always left out and always a second choice. Bye Update: And now they wanna take my kitten away

To the past and future me

Hey there. I just wanted to say that it really all worked out in the end and i mean now. Despite your results, you got into diagnosic radiography and its pretty rad. HAH! Okay except physics. Btw see what i did there? Okay you might be annoyed that i'm not capitalising my "i"s but its just that i'm not in the mood to be corect. I feel weird. Like I pissed someone off and this person means a lot to me. I'm not sure but to me it seems like she's avoiding me? Maybe its all in my head? But i'm a bad friend for forgetting her birthday. I'm not keeping track of my days nowadays and its just horrible. Btw Muizah got a kitty and i just call him kucing kecik for now. But i doubt my efforts to not be so attached to this creature is all in vain cause i adore him. Even much so cause he lets me kiss his cheeks. hehehe so cute . I'm not sure if im doing the right stuff for now but let's just treat everyone with kindness. I FEEL LONELY :C i'm very lonely. i'm not doing it right. I hope the future is better for you honey bun. I love you dearly and I hope you have seen the light of day when the storm has passed. Peace

AWESOME DAY EVER

So today was an awesome day cause SENPAI NOTICED ME HAHAHAH no but the thing is that Mr Sark noticed me on twitch chatroom hooomaigosh i swear. He is awesome and you should check out his vid man. His edits are amazing and super funny. He just said "to hoppityhobbit yes nick(nfen) has a youtube channel and you should check it out" it was during a live stream and he was playing nazi zombie 3 with allshamnowow, nfen and aplfisher who won in cs:go and was late for the party. Then sham said something about his youtube channel and nfen was saying " yeah you should check my youtube channel ...." and he was just jesting sbout sham's gamer tag. Woahhhhhh just thinking that he noticed me is like amazing. HE KNOWS I EXIST hahahaha okay I'm being real creepy right now. But this is something worth remembering cause i'm just a lowly fan and he answered my qn. Maybe its also thanks to the guy to replied to me on the chat too. Thanks man! Appreciate it loads! C: Future Mairah i hope more awesome things to come happened to you my friend. Peace